notes of a muslim

Alhamdulillah,
Allah has granted me with another day under his blessings. Another day, A new Year and new hopes arises.

It was the year 1429,
Its not an easy one. I can tell.

2008


-as-siyaahah fi Syria and Jordan.

Fi hallab, i skipped class for this

Alhamdulillah, My trip to Syria and Jordan for 2 months brought thousand of memories, the bad and the ugly. For the 1st 3 weeks or so i fell in love with Syria. It has its on tranquility in its own way. To be among the scholars, the islamic classes and the land of anbiya'. I'd rather call it my spiritual journey same as goin to umrah. I'd love to stay there for another year....... I do. I really do. Sa azhabu hunak marathan thani iza indi fulus. ngeh~

-Tahfiz
Some of the kids...
While on semester break, i decided i want to learn quran.again. And straight i fell in love again. The reason? tranquility, as I feel closer to Allah by learning his kalam. It such an amazing and sensational feeling to be able to memorize abstracts of the kalamullah. Yes,It is hard. It is boring at times.Long hours sitting and memorizing word by word, ayah by ayah and pages by pages. It goes on....and i started to think, I want to be HAFIZ. Yes. I was so reluctant to continue my degree for the time being. So I decided to take study leave. It sound crazy for some of us. But not in my case. I have a friend, he's from UK. He's a lawyer with newly wed beatiful wife. Beatiful house and cars. So one day, out of hectiness workloads. It came to him, "this is not my what i want most in this life". and then......he left behind his house,his car and his JOB. But not his wife though.Hehe. Off he goes to Syria. In search of the almighty..... For some of us the journey started late....and sacrifices have to be made. One thing in common between us, It came to a point in our life that all joyness of the world does not mean anything to us except with the clossness of god deep rooted in our qalb.There are few of whom i met like this for example my lecturer,in his case he started at the age of 50. MasyaALLAH. . Ya ALLAH kurniakan rahmat Keimanan dan hidayah didalam hati-jati kami.

Unfortunately after discussing with few friends and seniors.Also not to forget a sum of salatul istikharah i decided to continue my degree. I tell you, its a damn hard decision to make. It is. It is though. Only a day before the registration day, that i accept the offer letter. I wanted to become a Hafiz at the same time my responsibilities prevent me from doing so. I mean, my parents not against my idea. Insyallah, if time permits i'd love to continue again. Even another juzu' would mean alot to me..........

After all...there are things i'd rather keep to myself. Things that hard to explain. Ya Allah....strengthen me,equip me with your iman for the upcoming days,weeks and if you permit me to live for another year...

ahlan 1430..2009.

p.s: let du'aa for the people who having difficulties this time especially palestinian and **** and family.